I hope for the best
And always feel the disappointment.
I can't act
Like i’m not affected by you.
I want to talk to you
Like I always have.. But it’s like no one’s there. I miss you.. I wish I didn’t.
Blah blah blah
I can’t help but be sweet to people. I’ts my biggest weakness. Stop caring so much.
“My self respect says fuck you. My heart tells me not to be taken for granted. My rational decisions say you had your chance. But my love and determination won’t give up on you.”
its not calling or texting. thats what phones are supposed to do? :/
i'm about to lose my shit on someone
no more fucking patience.
i give everything i have
and then break down when there’s nothing left.. i shouldn’t expect anything from anyone.
my therapist went into labor.
hopefully she has a christmas baby.. too bad i really wanted to go see her today. :/
i don't know anybody else
who accepts me like you do.
i hate not feeling good enough.
i just do. and that’s not fair.
so i kinda feel like..
what the fuck happened?
for a real fucking christmas. it’s always just a lie anyways.. yeah, some of us might enjoy being together.. 3 marriages later, it’s just a reminder of how fucked up things got when we were all too young.. and how things continuously get fucked. i don’t even want to get your stupid christmas tree. this is supposed to be a time of joy and thankfulness. not an all out war...
if you speak rudely to me,
you will get the same tone of voice back. what else would you expect? respect? not when i don’t recieve any in return. you say i play the victim; maybe you are just the one who breaks me down. ever thought about double standards and how they affect the way you treat others? you just expect too much of me and too little of others.
i am really in love with you
& everything’s gonna be alright. i wouldn’t lie to you. (: <3
i just want you to smile.
for me, please?